day 28. fears.

i'm really afraid of being alone. all meanings of the word. that, and the dark. alone in the dark would probly make me die. yup.. straight up kill over.

day 27. family.

who is as blessed as me? i dare say no one. i don't think i'll ever understand why i am blessed with the things i am. all i know is to whom much is given, much is expected. so, i will continue to strive everyday to live worthy of these amazing people who i am privileged to call family. (am i using my who/whom correctly?). they are my everything. president brigham young explained that our families are not yet ours. the Lord has committed them to us to see how we will treat them. only if we are faithful will they be given to us forever. what we do on earth determines whether or not we will be worthy to become heavenly parents. the thought of not being able to be with them makes me....want to change the subject and not think about it. so i will strive everyday to be worthy. they bring me comfort, frustration, support, joy, annoyance, and all the things a family should. :) i'm so happy my parents met and made all of us. my family is seriously the best. and i'm not saying that lightly. they are the absolute BEST. not only my immediate family either.. my extended family, on both my mother and father's sides are the absolute best too! i have a LARGE family. (very large) i would rather hangout with my family than most anyone else. they are my greatest friends. the plan of salvation is SO inspired. our heavenly father is SO inspired. we couldn't survive without families. i'm so happy he sent me to mine.

my angel mother

my caring father

my wonderfully beautiful sister, fantastic brother in law and niece and 8/9 of my other niece ;)

my protective brother.

my crazy beautiful sister, bestie in law (not pictured) and niece and nephew. (i'm sorry bestie, i love you!! this was just my favorite picture of the kids and yo wife!) :)

my brother aka best friend.

and of course... syders, jazzy and jack. ;)

another family that i am beyond blessed to be joining (soon!) is this incredible one. the furness family. words cannot express the love i have for them. i am so SO happy to become a furness lady :) they are the kind, generous, thoughtful, optimistic, musical family that you only read about it books... except, they are real. :) they are so accepting and loving and i couldn't be more blessed to know them. they are the most incredible examples to me and i will never be able to thank them enough for all they have done for me throughout the past few years. thank you for sharing your son and brother with me. oh how i love each of you!!

day 26. means a lot to me.

i bet you could have guessed this one, right? this here boy means more to me than i can express. i love everything about him. he is... my love. i honestly don't know what i would do without him. he's my true blue best friend. i tell him all my secrets. he's my biggest fan. he's my knight in shining amour. he's my (almost) husband. he's going to be the father of our family. i love everything about him. he's the definition of loyal. he chose me. we waited for each other. he's my happy thought. my sunshine on a cloudy day. he's my example. he's my motivation. he's the most amazing person i know. i know i'm not there yet, but i'm working on it. april 29th could be right now and that would be SO okay with me. my love, i can't wait to start this grand adventure with you. i love that i can get you to cave. i love when you smile crooked. i love that you are my high school sweetheart. i love that you listen. i love that you try to understand. i love you. i love when we read scriptures together and you help me learn old things in new ways. i love everything about you. i love when you get in the car and its really cold you hit the steering wheel really really fast with your hands. i love when the heat is up to high you freak out 'cause you can't breathe. i love that you touch your ears when your tired. and when your content. and pretty much all the time ;) i love you. i love when you say "but my name isn't even joseeee!". i love that when you asked me to marry you, you included the worlds "happily ever after." i love when we were dancing under the pavilion we spun around and around. i love that when we were in disneyland together you kissed me in front of the castle. i love when you text me 19 pages of "are you safe" when i forget to tell you i got to school safely. i love when you beat me at scrabble. i love when you text me a picture you drew of us holding hands just cause you felt like drawing me a picture. i love that you were my first boyfriend in 7th grade. i love you. i love that you had to call me back out side so we could have our first kiss. i love that we wrote every week while you were away serving a mission for the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints. i love how much you loved being a missionary. i loved that you shared your experiences with me. you are all things good in the world. you make me happy when i am sad. i am the luckiest no battle plus one whatever you say. you once told me, "if you never have a dream, you can never have a dream come true." i love you. you were my dream, now you are my dream come true. i am the luckiest because i am living my own fairy tale. living my dream. living OUR dream. we're going to have a dream life. i feel like it's already starting out pretty well ;) i can't wait to move to texas (or colorado) with you. i can't wait to meet our puppy. i can't wait for him (or her) to squeeze in between us at night time. i can't wait to buy our first home. i can't wait to meet our kids. i can't wait for family home evening lessons that will consist of breaking up sword fights, rounding up crazy running children and ending with a family prayer. i can't wait for our honeymoon in disneyworld. i can't wait to (officially) be yours for eternity. i love when your face goes into the "oh no" face whenever i or someone gasps. you're the most thoughtful person in the world. i admire your spirituality. i admire your knowledge of the gospel. i admire you. you are not only regular amazing, but super duper amazing. i love that you spend boring sick nights with me. i love that we finally are finishing da vinci code. i love that you kept all the cards i got you while you were gone. i love all the things you teach me. i love that you're still reading this now ;) i love you. i honestly would not be who i am today without you. love isn't finding a perfect person. its seeing an imperfect person, perfectly. i love that our favorite movie is enchanted. i love that you want tails on your tux at our wedding. i love that you love french cuffs. i love your eyes. oh baby that needs to be repeated. i love your eyes i love your eyes i loveeeeee your eyes. i love that you hate it when i crack your middle knuckles. i love when you sing in the car. i LOVE when you sing in the car. i love when you tell me about what you read in the scriptures that was sooooooo good. :) i love when you burrow. i love that you always always open my door. i love when you play the piano and let me listen. i love that you tucked me into bed and talked me to sleep. i love you. i love YOU. I LOVE YOU. todd michael furness. i'm a hopeless romantic, and i DO believe in soul-mates and every ounce of me tells me YOU are MINE. i love your love for cookie dough. i love that my heart stop won't beating. i love when you knew when you wanted to marry me. i love that we WILL go to jerusalem. i love that you let me win. i love when you kiss me back. i love that the game is ALMOST OVER. i love when you walk me to my car. i love when you said 'i love you' for the first time when you got home at my car and you heard me squeal. i love you. this doesn't even begin to cover all the reasons i love you but i'm running out of room... did i mention.. i love you?

welcome home :)

day 25. i LOVE sundays.

well, i started my day in the best way possible by attending..

:) now, it will probly consist of a big ol' longggg..

....aaand if we're being honest... probly a little of this... ;) hehe.

day 24.

day 23. photo of my favorite book(s).

these books are gifts. actual gifts from heaven. if you haven't read either of them, i will suggest them over ANY book.. EVER. if you want more information about the book towards the top of the picture.. go here. :) they are my absolute FAVORITE books of all time. i receive actual happiness when i read the words they contain. not momentary haha funny happiness, but because of the words i read, i know its eternal happiness.

don't forget, go here :) you won't regret it.

day 22. communication.

wouldn't it be so... convenient if we could just know the thoughts in each others brains? not only know them, but be able to u n d e r s t a n d them too?