happy christmas :)

you might get tired of hearing me say this but once again, i had

seriously the most incredible weekend ever had by anyone in the existence of the earth. :) on friday i got to spend the entire afternoon with my love watching miracle of 34th street and then going to see a...play? at my school. don't ask us what it was about, because we have absolutely no clue. too confusing. we left at intermissi on. haha :) on saturday we went to toddy's mini mission reunion and then met up with our provo family for the flannel party :) did you know that i have the greatest provo team in the uuunniiivveeerrrsssee? hehe. cause i do. hehe. we took family pictures, ate delicious food mama char cooked up, and then went downtown to look at the prettiest building in existence. i honestly don't know how my life could be any happier. :)

happy as the sun :)

there some people that you know from the moment they come into your life, that you don't ever ever ever want them to leave. i'm so blessed to have so many of those people surround me daily.

pictured or not, thank you for supplying my life with utter and complete happiness. :)

clucluclucluclucluclu.

i had another can't-eat, can't-sleep, reach-for-the-stars, over- the-fence, world-series kind of weekend. i contribute my weekend to to 3 things:

1. the fact that the gospel is SO DANG TRUE.

2. reminders ;)

3. and a really reeeeeally really cute boy named todd.

iiliilaidcwki :)

thanks.

i sure do have a lot to be thankful for. so much that i honestly can't even begin to name everything.

so i am going to name three.

i love my family. during an intense game of speed scrabble after turkey day i looked up and around at the people i was surrounded by and had a thought.. how rad is it that i was sent to this family. the same family as these people? we all just.. mesh. and get along wonderfully. and enjoy each others company. He knew we needed to be family. thanks for that :) i love the people in my life so much. i am so blessed.

i have a house. a house that keeps me warm from the cold winter wonderland outside my front door. and not to mention that house is filled with the wonderful people i mentioned above. my house is full of happiness, music, memories and love. from the fire mark on the kitchen floor to jazzy's pee stains that line the basement hallway; i love everything about it. every time i go home i can feel the difference in the air. its thinker, denser, happier, lovelier. i always want to be home because home is where my heart is. (in more ways than one) ;)

i am grateful for my knowledge that my church, the church of Jesus Christ of latter-day saints is t-r-u-e. its truer than true and i love it through and through. it's the happiest part of my life. all i am, all i have, i owe to knowing what i know. i know who i am and i know my purpose in life. i still have a long way to go before i reach the potential i possess inside of me, but isn't that the fun part of life? the journey. all in all, i'm grateful for my journey. because i know my journey is specified just for me because guess what.. He loves me and knows me better than i even know myself.

i hope errrbodys thanksgiving break was as amazing as mine was. i hope it was spent with amazing people, eating amazing food, while making amazing memories. i seriously love my life.

perfect weekend.

my weekend full of happiness and wonderful people. friday i saw my rockstar brother jammm at the covey center with vocal point. saturday was stephanies birthday aaaand i went on a date with my love slash beat him in pool :) on sunday we made breakfast and i learned he has mastered the art of making pancakes. we also split one piece of bacon, i smiered yogurt on his face and then we skipped in the perfect falling snowflakes after church. then i hung with my bunker family and we watched a movie and brett taught me 2 new songs on the guitar. is this seriously real life? giddy giddy giddy giddy.

dr seuss, you got it right. reality is finally better than my dreams ;)

ain't life graaand? :)

1. smile.. HARD.

2. laughing too hard to even look at the camera.

3. sneak attack/ ANGER ;)

4. smile hard.. round 2?

happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy:)

we find, the best way to spend our break at work is taking pictures in the leaves outside our office building. i am quite fond of my cousins. and fall time. and a certain boy with the initials tmf ♥. (not pictured)

im on a quest.

for a giant majority of my life i have been known as the following:

the crazy girl.

that happy girl.

the mormon girl.

the HYPER girl.

the girl with the endless supply of energy.

and on occasion, the girl who is grumpy until the morning time reaches double digits.

i've tried, for most my life, to be these things that i'm known as.

but that got me thinking..

am i known as those things because thats how i really am, or am i those things because thats how i'm known?

or in other words, do i act, or rather, AM i a certain way now because thats whats expected of me because that's how i've been in the past?

before you think i am, i'm not complaining by any means.

i AM those things, i know i am. and i'm proud to be :) (especially title # 3-- see letter jacket)

but who says you have to be just one way your whole life?

why can't someone one day be the crazy girl, and the next day be the shy girl.. just because they want to?

sometimes i don't feel like acting consistent. i want to be EVERY kind of girl. i want to be his kind of girl.

i don't know.. maybe its just me.

:)

♥♥♥

theres no one else i would have rather shared my chocolate chip cookie with... ;)

food for your soul :)

"An intelligent being, in the image of God, possesses every organ, attribute, sense, sympathy, affection of will, wisdom, love, power and gift, which is possessed by God Himself. But these are possessed by man, in the rudimental state in a subordinate sense of the word. Or, in other words, these attributes are in embryo, and are to be gradually developed. They resemble a bud, or a germ, which generally develops into a bloom and then, by progress, produces the mature fruit after it's own kind. The gift of the Holy Spirit adapts itself to all these organs or attributes. It quickens all the intellectual faculties, increases, enlarges, expands, and purifies all the natural passions and affections and adapts them by the gift of wisdom, to their lawful use. It inspires, develops, cultivates and matures all the fine toned sympathies, joys, tastes, kindred feelings and affections of our nature. It inspires virtue, kindness, goodness, tenderness, gentleness, and charity. It develops the beauty of a persons forms and features. It tends to health, vigor, animation and social feeling. It develops and invigorates all the faculties of the physical and intellectual man. It strengthens and invigorates and gives tone to nerves. In short, it is as it were, marrow to the bone, joy to the heart, light to the eyes, music to the ears and life to the whole being. In the presence of such persons one feels to enjoy the light of their countenances, as the genial rays of a sunbeam. Their very atmosphere diffuse and thrill a warm glow of pure gladness and sympathy to the heart and nerves of others who have kindred feelings of spirit."

-Parley P Pratt :)

happiness doesn't even begin to cover it.

:)

my family- provo edition.

hehe :)

single digits.

gettin down to the wire.

when did that happen? could have sworn i got home from mexico like, yesterday.

etwehrkldhfjlkash i want to go back to mexico. :(

maybe ill take you back and show you all my favorite spots introduce you to all my favorite children :) that'd be neat.

my one wish: my best was here to share in my excitement.

guess who has theeee cutest nieces and nephew around.. iiiiiiiii dooooo :)

this is a pretty picture..

im gonna go color a picture.

nerves.

i. am. nervous.

i mean, i'm not necessarily nervous for any [one event] perrsayyy, although there is [an event] that makes me want to PEE every time i think about it.

...which is pretty much at all times. eellggghhhh.

i got a letter from my brown half, hermana boyle. :) made my week.

i really REALLY have the greatest friends anyone could ever have. spreadin' the good word all OVER this world. how did i get so lucky?

i love general conference so much that i cant even finish this welfhsjkssjkrahsldkfjhadjfhasdfj sentence without spazzing out. :) seriously tho, i am the luckiest.

"once upon a time.."

" _____ loved _____. the end. :)"

"yes! and the middle details aren't even important because all that matters is that!"

remember that one time when hcg ruins my life?!?! i dont even like lettuce. oh well. 16 16 16 more minutes gonna get it done.

theres this word thats on my mind lately... its kinda burning my brain like harry potter burned professor quirrell's face in harry potter and the sorcerers stone.

but its a secret and i am not going to tell you what it is.

"no distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the friendship of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other's worth."

-Robert Southey

i...

think.

weird how that works out cause normally.. i don't. i just do things.. oops. :)

i've been thinking lots lately. especially in the last 24 hours of my life.

the main question in my brain is, why?

i have come to the conclusion that it is good to think. it's good to just sit and ponder.

sit and wonder.

sit and... wish.

starlight start bright the first star i see tonight, i wish i may i wish i might, have the wish i wish tonight.

also, truth is good. its better than lies, that's for sure.

just wish it didn't go down like that.

i have amazing friends. did you know? if you think you have the best friends, WRONG. i do, sorry :)

today is stephanies re-birthday!! she's 2 years old in the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints. go steph :) i really love you.

i did my math homework last night. and i got 100%. on BOTH assignments. i know, i know.. hold your applause :) -neither of the assignments had linear equations in them...

never judge a book by it's cover. never never.

today when i went to go cash my check, my teller, jaiver, made my day. he guessed that my favorite color was yellow and gave me a yellow sucker cause he could tell it was my favorite. (was my car a give away...?)

my best friend is leaving on her mission next week. she gets set apart a week from today. that makes me sad inside.

also, tom leaves on tuesday. next week sucks.

im 0 for 3 starting next week. that sucks, again.

but its okay because madi's birthday is in january... ;)

various things.

sometimes, i feel as if i don't measure up.

and then, sometimes i feel as if i am selling myself short.

then, i feel arrogant for feeling like i sell myself short when i feel like i don't measure up.

confused?

me too.

so.. what do i do when i am confused and when i feel bad then good then bad again?

read my scriptures.

and then everything is all better. :)

OoOooO! aaaand i go be with my friends. cause they da coolest cats around.

aaaaand i take pictures with my oldschool camera.

aaand i watch hsm and eat chicken noodle soup and look for our star house under "doctors" orders. ;)

then i go to the owl city/john mayer concert and its the best.

theeennn i go to our place with my person in idaho and have the best weekend everrr :)

emotions.

• happiness
• fear
• confusion
• sadness
• guilt
• love
• pride
• jealousy
• gratitude
• self-pity
• anxiety
• resentment
• envy
• frustration
• regret

well hello there, emotions. welcome back into my life. it's been awhile since i had a good cry.. nice to know the tear duct's still work.

best friends.

ellbell, big linds, me, CB and the brown brunt of the jokes :)

seriously. these are the best friends anyone could ever ask for. kenz, thanks for doing singers and meetin shalece. shalece, thanks for going to murray and knowin all these fine ladies. fine ladies, thanks for knowin kenz so i could meet you. :) all of you, thanks for bringin happiness into my life. my life would seriously suck without every single one of you.

missin in the photo.. brookie. cause shes bein all legit in rhode island. :)

(comeee homeee!!)

"LOVE isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly."

i want a love like carl and ellie.

ps. 77 days 7 hours 1 min 28..27..26...25 seconds...

my mash-up

you can be the peanut butter to my jelly

you can be the butterflies i feel in my belly

you gave my life direction,

a game show love connection, you cant deny.

Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

but your so hypnotizing

you've got me laughing while i sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep.

youre better than the best

im lucky just to linger in your light.

if my heart was a compass you'd be north

even a thousand miles cant keep us apart

cause my heart is whereever you are

if my heart was a house, you'd be home

we'll take a long walk through the corn fields

and i'll kiss you, between the ears.

cause you've got a piece of me, and honestly

my life would suck without you

I'm never shy but this is different
I can't explain the way I'm feeling tonight
I'm losing control of my heart

you'll come back when its over

no need to say goodbye.

years from now, ill make every second count

when im with you.

i see your true colors

and thats why i love you.

forever can never be long enough for me

to feel like i've had long enough with you

and i thought i loved you then

promise me to always be happy by my side

i promise to, sing to you when all the music dies.

time, make it go faster

or just rewind to back when im wrapped in your arms.

cause i love you more than i could ever promise

and you, take me the way i am

todo cambio cuando te vi

de blanco y negro al color me converta

i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend,

cause God blessed the broken road,

that lead me straight to you.

c wortley > c maples.

im POSITIVE that everyone at this wedding thought we were sortaaa maaaybe a liiiitle bit..

CLINICALLY INSANE!!!!

myyyy family is cooler than yourrrr family

na na na na naaa naaaa!

at work i have this stall. in the bathoom. and its my stall. everytime i use the bathroom at work, i go in that stall. well today someone was in my stall. MY STALL. and i was bugged. why didn't she know that that was MY stall. or why didnt she know that i was going to be going to the bathroom at that exact moment. get outta my stall lady! its miiiiine and i want to go in THAT one. so i walked out and went back upstairs to work and came back down 10 min later so my stall would be there waiting for me. it was :)

why am i so weird?!

wanna know why today was fantastic?

i woke up to my best friend jumping on my bed.

happy 21 months<3

day 4. i attempted yoga-x with team x-treeem. and it was hiiiilarious.

listened to my genius of a brothers' new songs.

got a text from camee that said she just wanted to say she loved her family :)

jammed to "quality paul mix 1" on the way to work.

remembered this moment:

got told my calls sounded really great.

got free pizza at work.

aaaaand its only 7:51.

the night is young :)

countdowns.

SIR PAUL : 00 days-3 hours-16 minutes

CRUUUUISE : 36 days- 7 hours- 39 minutes (ish)

move in day : 40 days- 7 hours 38 minutes

schooool : 42 days- 7 hours- 36 minutes

first official fall 2010 family game night : 44 days- 4 hours- 39 minutes

p90x graduation day : 88 days- 7 hours- 31 minutes

ahsdtjkaefosdladgwefydskfbyagh : 103 days- 5 hours- 34 minutes

being sick SUCKS. i hate it. lots. e s p e c i a l l y when its the kinda sick that you cant just like.. avoid and think its annoying.

thats the sick i have.

the sick that puts you in bed and you cant even go pee or take a shower without feeling like you just ran a marathon. i even had to get creepy iv medicine. ohh ohh aaaaand i have to have machines help me breathe. go away pneumonia. youre seeeriously messing up my running schedule.

well...

i'm *t w e n t y*

that's weird.

the roast beef combo is only $9.95

generally, when i think of the word change the next word that comes to my mind is: crappity. i dont like change. the changes that i've had in my life have, for the most part, have also included goodbyes; another word i associate with crappity. i really could do without saying goodbye. if i had it my way, i would have everyone that i've ever known and loved live in one giant neighborhood and we'd throw block parties and play night games, every. night. change just.. doesnt sit well with me.. till now.

i used to live in mexico. i really, really loved living in mexico.

i mean, i missed everyone back home and everything...

....but i probly could have stayed there forever. (no offense homies)

now that im home, living in my house..

back to my old job, back into my same routine,

i kinda really want some change.

dont get me wrong.. I LOOOVE MY LIFE

but, its fun to mix it up every once in a while, ya know? like for instance. instead of living at the branbury this fall like i have for the past 2 years,

im living in a ROCKIN log cabin with my best friends.

and i seeeeeriously cant wait to move in :) aaaand instead of cereal for breakfast this morning i had a bagel! (baby steps people)

moral of my story?

im sorry, change.

i've hated you for so long that i didnt even know you could bring good things too..

ps. i changed my hair again..... :)

things that make me smile.

• SUNSHINE
• family
• pumpkins
• r a i n
• mondays
• flowers
• colors
• memories
• peace
• this little dude..
• 

• scriptures
• melc
• spray paint
• surprises
• glasses
• ROCKS
• pictures
• disney
• little things.

there are WAY too many things in life to smile about...

isn't that the greatest? :)

SHOW ME YOUR PEARLY WHITES PEOPLE.

what makes YOU smile? :)

with a raggity old halter top that says jaaaaam.

betsy lou is her name.

and its quite funny how insanely accurate she is at creeping my life. like today for example, she played such songs like...

faithfully- journey

can i have this dance- hsm 3

god bless the broken road- rascal flatts

lucky- jason mraz ft. colbie caillat

my best friend- weezer

thank you, besty. i realize i miss him, okay?! but dont

worry, she redeemed herself and played some of my favorite jaaaams like..

damaged- danity kane

jesse's girl- rick springfield (but the glee version) :)

walk away- kelly clarkson

# 16- vocal point

so, i think i'll keep her around. as long as she behaves herself..

they say..

home. is where the heart. is

what happens when my heart is across the country?

story of my liiiiiiife.

oh my sweet lovin hair.

i have this problem see... i like to change my hair. randomly. and without warning to anyone except the person i ask to do it for me. well below is the chain of events my hair has taken in the past 2 weeks. sorry hair, ill be nice again, promise.

BEFORE

don't trust mexicans to die your hair blonde.. just.. don't

cassie fixed it for me!! buttt it was stilll..... ya i know, you dont need to say it.

so i tried to go back brown and it turned well.. not really sure. we thought up purpley grey. (ps this is the package my mom sent be for easter.. I LOVE MY MAMA!!!! ) :)

and i just took this one now.. we FINALLY got back to brown. i think im done dying for a while.....

.....maybe. ;)